September 06, 2021 6 min read
Breastfeeding has been a rollercoaster journey for me and I salute all breastfeeding mums.
Despite my baby being a brilliant latcher at birth, I struggled through the first few weeks with painful engorgement, soreness and bleeding, extreme exhaustion and thirst, and just a lot of blues. I hated breastfeeding at that moment. It felt like the most tiring and painful thing ever, pure torture which I had to keep repeating every 2 hours, and it just took up all my time. I thought of giving up daily.
But with time things got better (and this is my motto through motherhood - it will get better), the pain subsided. I managed to get help with my engorgement and my supply was regulated. I was able to switch from pumping more frequently to exclusively breastfeeding and wow suddenly it is the most gratifying experience. Talk about a full transformation!
Breastfeeding my firstborn in 2018 was a trying period with unrealistic expectations set by social media. Loads of money spent on lactation boosters did not help.
This time in 2021 for my second born, I have decided to take it easy on myself and spend the money on pretty nursing bras instead. It worked!
Do what works for you.
Perhaps it's the oxytocin at play, but I just love breastfeeding and cherish this alone time with my baby. I love watching her latch on. When her hands gently stroke me or when sometimes we lock eyes, I am overwhelmed with LOVE for my baby.
It fills me with so much joy that I am able to provide for my baby. I have been nursing her for the past 3+ months, and she is growing well! I also secretly love how she is dependant on me, so she will never leave my side. Also, staycations are a breeze because I'm her exclusive food source. As I'm preparing to go back to work, I do wonder how long I'll be able to keep this up, but in the meantime, I am thankful for being able to experience the joys of breastfeeding.
A little encouragement to any mum still figuring it out - You got this, it will all get better.